Eze is again, on the peak of a mountain. There is nothing very special about this village, other than that it sounds cool to say and takes 763 stairs (an estimate, not a fact) to get to.

However. What I discover to be enormously exciting (and to the dismay of all the testosterone on the bus), is that Eze is also the home to a very prestigious
“Fragonard”, a French perfume factory. We get what I consider to be one of the coolest tours ever: walking room to room, learning how essence is distilled, mixed, formed, painted, packaged- the works. (Did you know that it takes three tons of rose petals to produce one kilo of rose essence? Well, now you do!)
It was awesome to see the chemical lab where the “noses” (those born with a gift of smell and total around fifty in the entire world) do the most important work. These special people, from what our guide tells us, are only allowed to work a maximum of two hours a day (or else their noses get overworked), and make bank.

Hmmmmm I may have terrible vision, but I’ve always thought I had a pretty decent sense of smell, and this would be a lot more interesting than writing business plans…
Finally we enter the gift shop, otherwise known as a candy store for perfume lovers like myself. A hundred scent-crazed girls try on every kind of fragrance offered and right before we become overwhelmed by the smell, I settle on one and escape to the fresh air.
The one I choose is characterized by vanilla, flowers, and a little bit of musk, and its name,
Éclat, means “sparkle” :)

Finally, to the joy of my over-tired legs, everybody piles back on the bus around 5 o’clock (again, I don’t think the boys are pleased by our obnoxious smell). I plug in my headphones so A Fine Frenzy can serenade me throughout this beautiful drive down and out of this little paradise, this Cote d’Azur, this exclusive, architectural and artistic stretch of coast, the French Riviera.
It is dark, and though I am tired, I can’t fall asleep. I spend the majority of this five hour journey back to Florence absorbed self-reflection.
A song came on the night before while dancing at the club in Nice, and after Firenzo belted out the lyrics with everyone else, he pulled me over.
“That sentence,” he said. “It is my favorite in any song.”

They come to mind now, as I am cruising through the Italian countryside in the dark.
“And since I made it here, I can make it anywhere,” Jay-Z so eloquently raps in Empire State of Mind.
I laughed it off at the time, thinking how goofy this career-motivated, English speaking French boy was, the sentence isn’t anything that special. But maybe it hits a little closer to home that I thought.
Here I am, suspended somewhere between Italy and France, and I think how much work it took to make it to this point. All of the paperwork, the extra hours at the restaurant, the lack of sleep, the housing arrangements, the packing, the goodbyes, the fear of the unknown. The dread that it wouldn’t be worth it.
But you can’t put a price or measure the sacrifice of what is worthy for what I have experienced these past few weeks.
To say it has been “worth it” to date, is a gross understatement. This isn’t implying that I live in Paradise- because I don’t. There are plenty of things I both like and dislike about Europe. But just being here I can feel my mind unfolding from all the day-to-day things it has been wrapped around for so long. I don’t stress out about getting to work on time, car repairs, making sure I have gas in my tank, utilities, rent. I left all of those things across the ocean. And although it took a while to get adjusted to this different state of mind, I must say that I finally feel like I actually
have one.
Maybe I’m so ditzy back home because all my brain cells are dedicated to other, more important, matters. Or maybe I’m just ditzy.

Either way, I’ve rediscovered one of the most important and yet intangible entities in the world- time. I am able to think more clearly about who I am, and where I’ve been, and where I want to go, and what I want and, well, everything. Back home I don’t have much time to unwind from point A to point B, I just get a Starbucks to get to point C, and what is left over is who I (generally over caffeinated),am.
But despite what it feels has been blindly hauling through life, I somehow ended up exactly where I want to be. I’ve always known everything happens for a reason, but here I am, able to finally be who I want to be, aside from the job, the school, the sorority, and all the other establishments that I love, but am really, really, enjoying being away from. For the moment. And with such an open mind, everything feels so new and fresh. Everything is inspiring.
In the corner of an Italian cafe, or exploring the coast of France, or wherever I will be tomorrow, I am so happy to finally just, be.
Jay-Z may not have realized it at the time, but he was writing my anthem. At least for this week ;)
“These streets will make you feel brand new, the lights will inspire you”